I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Can't quite put my finger on it, but just a general state of blah.
A friend suggested I shake things up and randomly try something new. My first reaction was, "Don't you see how busy I am?! There's swim lessons, payroll at work, and dinner to worry about! How am I gonna try something new? Why would I even want to?"
I immediately freaked out just at the mention of trying something new! I'll be honest. Shaking things up for me usually just means a new casserole. I'm not adventurous and new things give me hives. (Kidding, but I feel anxiety, that counts, right.)
I decided to follow the friend's advice and try something new. I went to get a hot stone massage on yesterday.
I'm sparing you all of the details but my therapist worked extremely hard on me. It took me around 20 minutes to stop thinking about everything I had left on my to do list. As he worked on the many, many knots in my shoulders, I finally let the smell of jasmine and the sound of reggae take me away.
I was able to close my eyes and just be. There aren't many moments for someone like me to do that. I'm always worrying about what needs to be done and who may be calling me at any given moment. For an hour, I was just Kim. No one asked me about financial statements, dinner plans, laundry, or ANYTHING. The world didn't end! The universe was still in existence.
Things I learned:
1. People with dreads make me smile. :) Random but true.
2. I really need to take better care of myself. I'm a basket case and it's self created!
3. I want to try something new every month, indefinitely. It felt good to do something that made me a little uncomfortable.
4. Friends, who, for whatever reason, make these types of suggestions are worth keeping around.